I'm Sorry Dad
by Kris Sundberg
I have needed to say this out loud for over 5 years. I am sorry Dad.
Actually, I need to scream it. I am sorry for so many things.
I Should Have Listened
I should have listened to you more carefully, watched you more lovingly and helped you everyday, not just when I ‘had time.’
I knew you would never complain or ask for help. But why did I just go about my life and not take more time for you? Help you? Listen to you? Be with you?
You Were Found 7 Days Later
I am sorry Dad. You should never have been humiliated in death the way you were. But where was I? There are no excuses. I wasn’t there.
Your hands were clasped together as if in prayer cushioning your head from the floor. That is how they found your body 7 days later.
I Am So Profoundly Sorry Dad
It Was Just A Warehouse
Why didn’t I take action, when there were clear signs that your new home was no home at all? It was just a warehouse.
I am so sorry Dad. I failed you so many times.
Dad, I promise you this - I will honor your memory by working every day of my life to hold those warehouses for elders accountable for their shameful neglectful, abusive, disrespectful and unloving care.
No more will I sit quietly while these operators promote this ‘business model’ as benchmark solutions for our elders.
I will tell the truth - too many of these facilities are a heartbreaking failure causing unfathomable, needless suffering and death.